I have missed exits when driving, ingredients when cooking, words when talking, where my feet are when walking. I forget that I can't put my pants on while standing, phone numbers that I have called a ton of times, must-do tasks and things that I'm just not supposed to forget like my afternoon dose of a medication that I miss at least five times a week.
It's hard not to feel inferior to people with fully functioning brains. It's hard not to feel anger and frustration at the daily challenges that this crap disease brings. Imagine the last time you went into a room and forgot what you went there for. Imagine standing there with a big question mark over your head and feeling crazy over the fact that you just can't figure it out. Now add that to other tasks in your day, too.
Imagine that you have four icons open on your task bar, five clear icons like email, internet browser, Excel and a calculator. You want to check your email but click the internet browser first and then get frustrated and try again and click Excel - you see where this is going.
It's like making cookies and forgetting the flour and never realizing what the problem could be even though it looks very wrong. Others wonder how on earth you couldn't just look at it and see a problem. Welcome to MS.
Over and over and over and over again all day long I have these little mishaps. It's known that these things are a huge contributors in the fatigue. It makes perfect sense considering that it can take 3-4 times to accomplish a simple task and/or multiple times to fix mistakes that have been made.
So make me a dunce cap out of an orange ribbon and I will don it if I remember.
Happens to me everyday. I wonder why the kids look at me funny when I bake
ReplyDeleteThanks for blog My wife has MS and experiences everything you have described. More patience required by myself
ReplyDeleteTodd, I know those looks.
ReplyDeleteDavid, welcome aboard and thanks for commenting. My hubby is in the same boat. It must be very hard to be the spouse on the outside looking in and watching all the mess MS brings.
I know this problem all too well.
ReplyDeleteTrying to wrap presents and not being able to work out where on earth to start is my prime example.
I get so frustrated and end up throwing tape across the room in anger at myself every time. And yet when I next need to wrap, I completely forget all that and still try to attempt it.
These things are all too family, uhm, famlar, uhm, famyliar...familiar! That's it, familiar! Sometimes it's a word as simple as those/that/then (and I actually typed a y instead of the i in simple, but caught myself). Your post made me nod my head in agreement & put a smile on my face. Thanks for sharing with us your gift of putting into words what so many of us can't, and in a humorous way!
ReplyDeleteWelcome Luke and AK!
ReplyDeleteAK, I have made crazy typos, too. I was an English major so that makes it seem worse. I often think of the time I wrote the word love as lof. Well of has the same sound as ove, right?